Here she is in all her cuteness. The pants are way too baggy for my taste. She loves the outfit so that is always a plus. She gets so excited when I sew for her now. I love it.
Personal update:
Been staying away from the puter this week. I am battling depression big time and the only way for me to beat it is by staying as busy as possible. I will not let myself go into the dark hole! It is the medication Dr. prescribed me for my neck issues. I started taking a half dose on Wednesday. Starting to feel more like myself already. I am only feeling some withdrawals late afternoon and if I stay busy all is good. I am on a small dose so that helps for sure. I am also feeling a little discouraged and crazy when it comes to my neck pain. Physical therapy isn't helping. The only thing that helps is when he is doing the cervical traction (lifting my head up) and that is only when he is doing it. Feels like a nerve is unpinched when he is doing it. The pain I feel is on the right side but the herniated disc protrudes to the left as well as the bone spurs. Hmmm. The most pain I seem to be dealing with is in my right arm lately. Physical therapist did some tests and said the pain has got to be coming from my neck and not my shoulder or wrist. Dr.s have been saying maybe I have carpal tunnel and that is where the pain is coming from. HELLO..I have a pinched nerve from the herniated disc. I can feel it. The physical therapist is the only one who has acknowleged what I feel so that is comforting but not making me feel any better at all. I have an EMG and nerve conduction test on Tuesday. These tests will help determine where the nerve tingling is from as well as the muscle weakness. Physical therapist tested that I have forty percent strength in my right arm so there is something. there is this loud voice in the back of my head that says I am crazy and it is all in my mind but the tests show i am not but what if nothing comes back on the tests on Tuesday. I am going crazy I tell ya. I am 32 and can not imagine living my life like this. It brings me to tears thinking about living like this. I blow dry my hair with my arm propped up for goodness sakes. I am in pain sewing from looking down. I do most things with my non-dominate hand. The whatifs have been taking over me and I am just tired of my brain that never stops. I have said too much already....don't like complaining but I have become real good at it.
On another note: Mother in law is coming next weekend. Peter work so hard and built me the fence for me so I have slowly been trying to paint it. Not an easy task because I have a hard time keeping a grip on the brush but have a third of it done so far. Spent an hour and a half cutting the grass by hand around the bottom so I can paint the bottom portion today. I must have looked so silly out there with my paper scissors...lol. I only got half way at that. Haha. Going out this afternoon after the fog lifts hopefully (ya never know...which is another thing I have been fighting trying to paint it.)...to finish my job...pics to come shortly.
Garden:
Seeds are coming up. Gopher is tearing up our lawn but hasnt broken through the garden yet. Chicken wire is working. We had a couple nights of freezing and the plants made it through...yah! I went out yesterday to plant some more. The only seedlings I planted indoors that seem to be doing well are my cukes, zukes, cilantro and some cosmos. I am not sure when to set out my warm weather plants here. I suppose I could look for the number for my local county extension office and find out. The nursery didnt have them out though....although there were tomatoes. Supposedly they are impossible to grow here. This girl loves a challenge but hates risk so I will only experiment with one early variety and one cherry tomato. they will not have the privelege of my nice raised beds either. One will get a tire around it....not sure if that will help keep the heat in but honey got me one so I better try it. The other one is gonna get plopped in the ground somewhere. Our dirt is beautiful here but we'll see if it just gonna be gopher bait. Being outside so much has been good for my soul and mind. I haven't felt like doing it but i have to keep pusing myself. I am just physically tired!!
boy what a long and scatterbrained post this was. In fact, I wore out the batteries in the wireless keyboard. :) Better take care of the dog and chitlins because I just noticed it is two hours past breakfast! Bad momma!
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